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To be honest, if anyone could have given me anything growing up, being rescued would have been my first choice. I Couldn't Find Her So I Created Her is a novel told in poems, chronicling author Tyler Harrison's experience with abuse, trauma, life, love, and God. Don't be afraid to speak up about abuse; it is serious.

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Philosophie et théologie

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Publié par	Austin Macauley Publishers
Date de parution	29 mai 2020
Nombre de lectures	0
EAN13	9781645365891
Langue	English
Poids de l'ouvrage	2 Mo

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I Couldn’t Find Her So I Created Her
Wrestling with new concepts, I got them from downstairs
Tyler Harrison
Austin Macauley Publishers
2020-05-29
I Couldn’t Find Her So I Created Her About The Author Copyright Information © Acknowledgements I Found Her and I’m About to Marry Her
About The Author

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This novel is a collection of poems as the author wrestles and grapples with difficult concepts in an abstract, creative way, while maintaining a story line. The mission with this novel is to end human suffering for everyone because the author suffered a lot growing up. Despite the tragedies the author faces, this novel is very powerful.
Copyright Information ©
Tyler Harrison (2020)
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Any person who commits any unauthorized act in relation to this publication may be liable to criminal prosecution and civil claims for damages.
Austin Macauley is committed to publishing works of quality and integrity. In that spirit, we are proud to offer this book to our readers; however, the story, the experiences, and the words are the author’s alone.
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Harrison, Tyler
I Couldn’t Find Her So I Created Her
ISBN 9781645361008 (Paperback)
ISBN 9781645361015 (Hardback)
ISBN 9781645365891 (ePub e-book)
Library of Congress Control Number: 2020902896
www.austinmacauley.com/us
First Published (2020)
Austin Macauley Publishers LLC
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New York, NY 10005
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Acknowledgements
God is alive, God gave me life, God is living on the inside, God is the reason that I’m still alive. Just thankful I get to operate and participate on this place called Earth. Thankful for all the ones that were good to me, and if you weren’t, I forgive you too.
My nana is a wise woman; she was an editor for the Eufaula newspaper and also was an antique dealer when she worked. She is an intelligent woman, and I love both of my grandparents very much. My grandpa travelled a lot; he was a regional manager for AGCO, which was a company that distributed agriculture equipment. Because of them, my brothers and I had Christmas every year and still continue to get blessed with Christmas by them. We got to go on fun road trips after I turned 12, with my grandpa. Because of them I got to experience the beach for the first time and a handful of times afterward. Very thankful for all that they have done for myself and my brothers. Yesterday on 5-27-2019 they celebrated 52 years of marriage, how beautiful. I love them. Thankful to God for them…

Before you read my story, I want you to know that the autobiography, where I tell about my life and Lucy’s life is based on a true story. The only thing that isn’t true is that I changed her name and she is a creative writing major instead of a film artist/director. I am not writing this story so you can feel sorry for me, I am writing it because I believe my story needs to be heard so I can impact millions of people’s lives for the liberation of others. I forgive anyone who has ever hurt me or wronged me in any way. I want to end human suffering for everyone because I have known suffering throughout my life, but there’s one thing that covers it all which is love. Loving and Serving are the two most phenomenal things we can all do to make the world a better place. I also am a Christian and I am not perfect but I can tell you all this, that each and every one of us has greatness and has a purpose! (NIV)
“Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.”
Colossians 3:13
“Do not judge and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven.”
Luke 6:37
“Whoever conceals their sins does not prosper, but the one who confesses and renounces them, finds mercy.”
Proverbs 28:13
“Therefore, my friends, I want you to know that through Jesus the forgiveness of sins is proclaimed to you. Through him, everyone who believes is set free from every sin, a justification you were not able to obtain under the Law of Moses.”
Acts 13:38-39
Romans 8:38-39
“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, [a] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
John 8
But Jesus went to the Mount of Olives.
At dawn he appeared again in the temple courts, where all the people gathered around him, and he sat down to teach them. The teachers of the law and the Pharisees brought in a woman caught in adultery. They made her stand before the group and said to Jesus, “Teacher, this woman was caught in the act of adultery. In the Law Moses commanded us to stone such women. Now what do you say?” They were using this question as a trap, in order to have a basis for accusing him.
But Jesus bent down and started to write on the ground with his finger. When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, “Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.” Again he stooped down and wrote on the ground.
At this, those who heard began to go away one at a time, the older ones first, until only Jesus was left, with the woman still standing there. Jesus straightened up and asked her,
"‘Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?’
‘No one, sir,’ she said.
‘Then neither do I condemn you,’ Jesus declared. ‘Go now and leave your life of sin.’"
Romans 10:9
If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.

I met her as I walked outside the mall, as her eyes caught mine my heart began to fall, as I talked to her I had to make a call, between getting her number and letting her go. For moments like this are made for stories to be told, this is the story of how she stole my heart as we journeyed down the road. So, I asked her what your plans are for tonight. For a woman as lovely as you should be treasured by and by. For if you’re searching for a good time, don’t be afraid, put your hand in mine, for unconditional love starts one day at a time. I’m the finest of them all, but you shimmer brighter than fall. You can find me every day after class, reading in the study hall. For John Greene’s TFIOS is my favorite of them all. He is an author and I am as well. Have you ever been to a formal ball, where lovers dance? Since we’re of age to drink, we won’t break the law.
She asked me, “What’s your name?”
I replied, “Tyler.”
As we walked down the road, she smiled and replied saying, “I like the way you rhyme, the way you connect words in a matter of lines, the way you capture my soul when your hands in mine, and the way the butterflies fly when I’m looking in your eyes. For my name is Lucy, I’m a film artist and director, I shoot movies. I have even shot movies that play at the movies. For capturing moments, there is something so moving, as touching the spirit, like in romance movies.”
“Wow, how cool,” I replied, “I appreciate the kind words and I sound like your guy! Let me get your number and join me for dinner. I’ll pick you up at five. I’ll love listening to you. Tell me about your life and for when the days get hard we will be alright.”
She replied, “Only, if only you don’t lose your grip when your hands get tired.”
Thirty minutes to five, thoughts are running wild, I was pretty brave earlier now I feel like hiding, see it’s not easy for me to let someone in, for when I was a child, it was natural to run and hide, to cope with the pain inside, of watching my brothers and mom screaming from the pain, we would cry, helpless and shy. I always kept quiet, my father was the culprit. He caused the numbing in my eyes. Now that I’m older, I’m a lot bolder, I got stronger shoulders after three years of losing my way, and I’m finally sober. Prayed for wisdom as a child didn’t know it meant, I would have gone through the coldest. I know it sounds crazy but I’m thankful for the storms, didn’t know we would be torn. Thankful I’m still alive, to tell you all that it’s okay to want to run and hide, it’s okay to not be alright, it’s okay to launch out of the darkest nights, it’s okay to search for your purpose under the light. See, God gives his hardest battles to his strongest soldiers. Gave me the ability to write, he gave me the ability to rhyme, he gave me the gift of life, now that I’m grown, chasing this passion of mine, doing hair and speaking into this mic, to set all your souls free while you all are saving mine. My greatest joy comes from serving, the secret to happiness is loving, if your searching for passion, the most satisfying life is in our ultimate effort of saving lives. Rescuing these people from the hate and the violence, reaching out to these victims who weren’t sure if there was anyone fighting for them. See, when I was 16, I tried to speak out about my dad. I tried to reach out. I gave all I had, he tried to put me in a mental hospital for going mad, I had enough, but I kept quiet, didn’t want to be in a hospital broken and sad for just wanting to tell the truth, I kept it all in. It wasn’t until I woke up to go use the restroom, but as soon as