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Courtney Jo discovers what led her to abuse alcohol and drugs and how studying the Bible helped put her demons to death.

Courtney Jo, who has experienced trauma from abandonment, sexual abuse and violence, did what you might expect: She turned to alcohol, sex and drugs for comfort.

Her coping behaviors led to self-harm, destructiveness, codependency, negative self-talk, depression, anxiety and so much more.

At a young age she suffered alcoholism, overeating, and heavy drug use. When she became pregnant with her son she had an abortion. She got pregnant again giving birth to her second son, who died 2 hours later. Courtney had lost all hope of becoming a mother.

Six months later she was pregnant again, but this time, she was in jail facing fifteen years in prison. Wanting out of the never ending vicious cycle of death she knew there had to be a way back to life. She asked herself what it is that caused her to dig such a deep dark hole.

Desperate for answers, she turned to Jesus and found salvation.

Join the author as she reveals how God took her and molded her into an image like His son, Jesus Christ. You’ll learn that our Lord and Savior can change your life.

Sujets

Religion

Christianisme

Christian Living

Personal Growth

Philosophie et théologie

Jesús de Nazaret

Beautiful Death

Jesus

Depression

Truth

Love

Jésus-Christ

Bible

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Publié par	WestBow Press
Date de parution	18 novembre 2022
Nombre de lectures	0
EAN13	9781664278639
Langue	English
Poids de l'ouvrage	2 Mo

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Beautiful DEATH

COURTNEY JO

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ISBN: 978-1-6642-7864-6 (sc)
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ISBN: 978-1-6642-7863-9 (e)

Library of Congress Control Number: 2022917339

WestBow Press rev. date: 11/17/2022

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“One day I will die, and you will all need to move on.”

Contents
Part 1: “I Love That You’re My Gigi”
Preface
Chapter 1 In Honor of Judy Secrest
Chapter 2 Red Light Decision
Chapter 3 Born into the Wild
Chapter 4 A Little Bit of Heaven
Chapter 5 The Brown Towel
Chapter 6 To Hold Oneself Accountable
Chapter 7 Fall Back In
Chapter 8 Chance or Choice?
Chapter 9 My Last Words
Chapter 10 Our Last Vacay
Chapter 11 Just Nod and Smile
Chapter 12 Down, Down, Down
Chapter 13 Carried
Chapter 14 Going through the Motions
Chapter 15 Don’t Give Up
Chapter 16 Use a Priority List
Chapter 17 Breakthroughs
Chapter 18 Morning After
Chapter 19 Broken Pieces
Chapter 20 It’s Time to Get Up!
Chapter 21 Beautiful Death
Chapter 22 End of the Week
Chapter 23 For the Love of Books
Chapter 24 Grandma’s Clothes
Chapter 25 Let Me Be Ugly, Not!
Chapter 26 Replace Trying with Training
Chapter 27 The Red Bird
Chapter 28 The Goldfinch
Chapter 29 Just Appreciate Her
Chapter 30 Take Care of It
Chapter 31 Rush, Rush, Hush
Chapter 32 Pain Body
Part 2: Doors of Salvation
Preface
Chapter 33 Malachi
Chapter 34 Doors of Salvation
Chapter 35 Faith
Chapter 36 Hope
Chapter 37 Love
Chapter 38 Nightmare
Chapter 39 1 Peter 5:8
Chapter 40 Crush the Head of the Devil
Chapter 41 Seg Holding 7
Chapter 42 422
Chapter 43 Seg Holding 9
Chapter 44 The Lord’s Covenant
Chapter 45 Study of Deuteronomy (NIV)
Chapter 46 Study of Philippians (NIV)
Chapter 47 James
Chapter 48 Hosea 12:6
Chapter 49 Inquire of God
Chapter 50 Grace and Truth
Chapter 51 Remain in Him
Chapter 52 Forgiveness
Chapter 53 Vessels

Broy Family
PART 1
“I Love That You’re My Gigi”
Preface
I’ve recently changed my perspective on expectations to a better attitude. I wake up every day expecting something good to happen to me.
I forget what is behind and move toward what lies ahead and press on toward the goal. (Philippians 3:13–14 NIV)
One of the things that keeps us from progressing forward is fear. The only force that overcomes fear is faith. When we have faith, we act. I share about many things in this book. During the period I took care of my grandmother, I allowed my thoughts and emotions to overwhelm me. I pretended that everything was supposed to be in order. That has never been the case. A part of what feeds this energy is my aunt and her way of living. She is very good at living the way she does. My aunt is an amazing woman. She tries to help me live right. I am thankful for her example. Although I have stubborn tendencies, deep down I know that she only wants what is best. Our home life is manageable today. It isn’t where I would like for it to be. I am growing and learning how to surrender daily to God’s will for my life. It doesn’t just happen. I must work for it. As I suffer, I like to utilize pen and paper to journal what is going on inside. I’ve had breakthroughs with understanding others. When circumstances change, people have an opportunity to change. The balance my family has today about keeping the house clean and living together happens through the power of prayer and the effort I’ve put into training on how to do the next right thing. I wouldn’t be where I am if I didn’t have examples from my family.
This temple I am housed in was full of clutter at one time. Remember: where the mind goes, the man follows (Joyce Meyer).
I believe what it says in the Bible: “So the man thinks in his heart, so he be” (Proverbs 23:7 AMP).
I wanted to capture the depression, anxiety, and fear that can become a person during such a tough season in his or her life. The root causes of my trauma were abandonment, neglect, sexual abuse, and domestic violence. These traumatic responses led to my drug and alcohol abuse. These coping behaviors also led to self-harm, destructiveness, codependency, mental abuse, negative self-talk, depression, anxiety, and so much more. So, how can I learn to change and develop good behaviors? I didn’t get into the truth until I turned thirty years old. I was prescribed anxiety medication at the age of nineteen. I got pregnant at twenty with my son, who had Down syndrome. At that time, I was consumed in the darkness of addiction and had poor decision-making skills. I did not have Jesus in my life. Fast forward ten years and I landed in jail facing fifteen years when I was three months pregnant. I know what depression feels like. I am familiar with that emotion. We live in a world full of hate and discomfort. I was fully aware. I always received little glimpses of the starlight, though. There were a few moments in the days I was lost. I could look up at the dark sky and still see the tiniest light, and I always knew that was meant to be me.
Just how could I ever get there?
How could I have done this to myself?
I had dug myself so deep into the ground that I could not climb my way out of it.
When would life change for me?
I was hopeless and helpless. Nothing was left in my soul but the chains the enemy used to hold me down in the grave. When I would reach out to my family I acted like a fool. Finding out I was pregnant again for the third time did something to me. I cared for the baby in my belly, and I needed help. So, I prayed.
In this book you will read about my journey during a season in my life that I never thought I could handle sober minded. But God took me and molded me into an image like His Son Jesus Christ. I wanted my real, raw thoughts plastered for the world to see to prove that Jesus Christ saves lives.
All you need to say is either “Yes” or “No”; anything beyond this is from the evil one. (Matthew 5:37 NIV)
I want to share the battles of stepping outside of myself and putting others first. Especially when those other people are family members. I discovered how to recognize the ego of the flesh and put it to death. Speaking of death, my resurrection came after I prayed one day in the woods. A short time after I made the decision to change, came my gra