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Against all odds, a woman's journey motivated her to triumph through life's weakest moments. This page-turner grips your innermost being and takes you into the most unimaginable places to introduce something profoundly worthy. Embrace the experience as you see first-hand what was revealed and what true freedom entails.

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Médecine

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Mental Health

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Publié par	Outskirts Press
Date de parution	18 août 2020
Nombre de lectures	0
EAN13	9781977232939
Langue	English

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Deliverance from Depression Coming out of the Darkness and into God’s Amazing Light All Rights Reserved. Copyright © 2017 Nicole Belle-Isle v3.0
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D EDICATION
I dedicate this book, first of all to God, Who is the head of my life and Who I cannot live and would not be here without. This book would not have been possible without Him. Secondly, I dedicate this book to my family who has always been there for me. Thirdly, I dedicate this to my friend and fellow author, Jamieya B-Johnson, and to Cedria, a young lady who encouraged and motivated me to finish my book. Lastly, but surely not the least, I dedicate this to my pastors, Apostle DeWayne and Pastor Parthia Hill, and to all who have helped me along the way on my journey. I thank each and every one of you. I love you all!
Dear Readers,
Names, dates, places, and incidents in this book have been changed or omitted for a variety of reasons, including, but not limited to the security, safety, and well-being of the people, places, or agencies involved. Any resemblance to anyone living or dead is purely coincidental. I will leave it up to the reader to realize who is what, who is who, and where is where.
T ABLE OF C ONTENTS
Introduction
Chapter 1: The Beginning Of Depression
Chapter 2: Losing All Hope, But Then Gaining It Back
Chapter 3: Becoming Consumed
Chapter 4: Stuck In My Issues
Chapter 5: Married, But Still Experiencing Depression
Chapter 6: Hitting Rock Bottom, But Then A Life-Changing Turnaround
Chapter 7: Continuing To Heal While Experiencing Another Life-Changing Trip
Chapter 8: The Return Of Depression
Chapter 9: Struggling with Forgiveness of Myself
Chapter 10: Continuing To Battle, But Then Experiencing A Breakthrough
Chapter 11: Changing My Thinking By Learning How To Use The Word
Chapter 12: Continuing To Strive For Deliverance
Chapter 13: Finally Receiving My Deliverance
Chapter 14: Since My Deliverance
I NTRODUCTION
If any of you have ever struggled with depression, you know what it’s like: the feelings, the attitude changes, the question of ‘why am I like this?’ Depression is nothing nice. It is difficult to go to work or school; often you don’t want to get up in the morning. It is hard to concentrate on anything else except the pain; the pain of depression which can lead to suicidal thoughts, attempts, and killing oneself; the pain of depression can lead to self-injurious behaviors and can also lead to addictions in attempts to drown out the pain. During my years of depression, I had many worries and insecurities; I would allow negative thinking to not only come into my mind, but to stay and dwell there! One negative thought would lead to another and another and before you know it, I was all worked up, not seeing anyway out and suicidal thoughts or self-injurious thoughts would come into my mind. I struggled with these things day in and day out with no rest for many years! No, depression is no joke! It is a very serious matter of which many people struggle with. Some people never receive help for it either. I struggled with all of these things for years, from the time that I was 13 years old until I was 33 years old…for 20 years of my life depression robbed me. I went to therapy for a while during a few of those years, however, I never took medication for depression; I never wanted for my body to become dependent upon medication in order for me to feel okay, thus I chose to stick it out and try to fight against it. My depression was somewhat hidden; only those who were close to me and around me all the time knew my struggle, or if I chose to disclose it to someone. When I mentioned to some people that I was writing a book about my deliverance from depression, they were surprised that I had dealt with depression. Yes, somehow through it all, I still managed to do everything I needed to do and still got good grades in school, though it definitely wasn’t easy as I had to push past my depression to focus and complete my schoolwork. Certainly, I did have some good times during the years I struggled with depression, and also had periods of even as many as 6 months when I was not depressed, but it always came back. At 42 years of age now, 20 years is almost half of my life, but I am writing this to tell you there is HOPE!!
I serve a faithful God! I once was lost, but now am found! I once was held in bondage of depression, but now am FREE!! I once was held in bondage with worry and insecurities, particularly over friendships, but now I am FREE!! Since I have been set free, I know I need to tell my story because people need to know there is hope, that there is light at the end of a dark tunnel. People I am still in contact with who were aware of my struggle with depression during those years can see the change in me! Also, those who didn’t know me during those years tell me what a delight I am, which is truly a testimony because I surely have not always been this way! Depression is a heavy thing to carry and this is what people would often experience when they were with me, unless I was having one of my "good days" where I wasn’t feeling down, and they would leave also feeling heavy. As a result, there were many times that people didn’t want to be around me for too long, unless it was one of my "good days." But, I am delivered now! I want to tell my story in hopes that it will help others and give people hope that they too can overcome struggles. It is not impossible, even if it may seem like it at times. In order to tell you my story, I need to take you back to when my depression first began. I will also need to tell my story in such a way that you will be able to see what was going on within the inside of me and see how troubled I really was. There will be some dark moments in my story because that is what depression is, darkness. However, there are also glimpses of light throughout my story, especially later in the book when I approached receiving my deliverance. Anyone who reads my story will be able to see that no matter what you go through, there is hope! Here is my story, my journey.
Chapter 1
T HE B EGINNING O F D EPRESSION
I WAS BORN in Minneapolis, MN in January 1975. I am the second child of four, all girls. I would say that I had a happy childhood, having two loving parents and lots of fun times together as a family; I have many wonderful memories from both my mom’s and dad’s sides of the family and from my immediate family. My sisters and I all attended a private school for our kindergarten through 8 th grade years. The problems did not begin until I turned 13-years-old. I don’t know why I started becoming emotional at that time; maybe it was hormonal changes, or it could have been genetic because I do know others in my family whom have also been depressed. In any case, my attitude and moods started changing; it did not happen all at once, but slowly over the course of my 7 th grade year, which I consider to be the best year out of all of my elementary school years. Therefore, I was basically happy during that year, but I noticed that I began to get emotional easier. For example, when I was at home and wasn’t doing anything and I heard some depressing music, I would begin to feel down for no reason. There were times when I also thought I had a reason, such as feeling lonely, wanting to be around my friends, but really, there was so much more to it than that. I just didn’t know it at the time. I was so young and inexperienced and had never dealt with that type of stuff before.
As time went on, the feelings and mood swings began intensifying. During my 8 th grade year, my mood was up and down throughout the school year. At times that I was feeling down, I often didn’t know why. I would be ok one moment, and the next would be down. Of course, being so young, I did not understand what was happening to me; I just knew that I wanted to be back to "normal" again, before the feelings came. However, the mood swings did not affect me at school and only did so at home; maybe it was because at school I was around my friends. During this period in my life, my depression was not serious yet. However, I did not know that it was depression that I was dealing with until my 9 th grade year.
By the time my 9 th grade year arrived, I was really excited to be starting high school. Since I spent 9 years at the same school, starting high school at a new place felt like a fresh start for me. There were only a few people I knew at my high school prior to attending there, thus, most of the friends I made were new friends. My older sister was also going there. I loved my school from the moment I got there! Since I was so happy to be at a new school, the mood swings actually went away for a little while. I also became interested in reading the Bible. I knew stories from the Bible that were told to me as a child and from books that contained Bible stories that were written for children, but other than that, I really didn’t know much about the Bible at all. I started reading in the book of Genesis, reading the books in order. I didn’t know it then, but this is when the Holy Spirit began working in me and I know it was the Hol