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Those suffering from schizophrenia see the world in a different way, although they may share with others the same feelings, thoughts, and reactions to the world around them. It is their interpretation of those feelings, thoughts, and reactions and communicating with others that can make life a challenge for them, complicating their relationships with those around them in unimaginable ways.

Psychiatrist doctors say most people are a little crazy; that said; I may be a little more insane than most people. You occupy the front row seat while you read about the actions taken by Perry; you see first-hand experiences portrayed through the eyes of a mad man roaming the streets; later taken forcefully by police and locked inside of a mental hospital; injected with brain altering; chemical surgical drugs.

This is a riveting true story producing an unforgettable experience.

The stress in my life shows; when I wake up screaming deep in my mind; only to realize I have not been sleeping.

The voices inside are watching me sink or swim. I'm paranoid; watching for the government behind my back. My ideas spin like a whirlwind deep inside of my head; telling me I can stop hearing the voices in my head; when I am dead. The face inside of me is right beneath my skin. Every word I say to me; takes me one step closer to the edge. Voices yell at me "Shut up when I'm talking to you".

Travel With Me Deep Inside My Twisted Brain.

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Santé et bien-être

Santé mentale & traumatisme

Santé mentale

Healing

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Publié par	eBookIt.com
Date de parution	14 mars 2014
Nombre de lectures	0
EAN13	9781456612436
Langue	English
Poids de l'ouvrage	7 Mo

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Walking Behind Schizophrenic Eyes

By
Perry Ritthaler

Copyright 2013 Perry Ritthaler,
http://www.digitalmindcoach.net
All rights reserved.

Published in eBook format by eBookIt.com
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ISBN-13: 978-1-4566-1243-6

No part of this book may be reproduced in any form or by any electronic or mechanical means including information storage and retrieval systems; without permission in writing from the author. The only exception is by a reviewer; who may quote short excerpts in a review.
Dedication
To my mom and dad; thank you for your love and support.
I love you; I love you; and my mental health recovery would not have been possible without your guidance and support.
Author
Acknowledgment
I would like to thank the RCMP and nursing staff and doctors at the Alberta Hospital Ponoka; Alberta Canada for treating me with dignity and respect.
Preface
Thank you for giving me this honor to create and share information designed to help all of us understand more about schizophrenia.
Those suffering from schizophrenia see the world in a different way, although they may share with others the same feelings, thoughts, and reactions to the world around them. It is their interpretation of those feelings, thoughts, and reactions and communicating with others that can make life a challenge for them, complicating their relationships with those around them in unimaginable ways.
Perry paints a picture of how schizophrenia can destroy one’s life and family.
Perry wished his family could have read the information compiled in the e-book “Walking Behind Schizophrenic Eyes” when he first experienced schizophrenic symptoms he did not understand.
Perry originally started writing his story to fight his mental disability into an e-book to help understand more about how or why the schizophrenia condition he faces entered his life.
Perry is a fighter like you; he is in search of safe ways to improve his mental health or gain more understanding about the sickness schizophrenia. However not from a medical doctors prospective; but a patients prospective on what they see and how they think when fighting the various mental illness conditions that help create schizophrenia.
During his struggle Perry has been able to write out what he can see in his mind; as he faces the mental sickness of schizophrenia attacking his brain; and how this war in his mind changed when he was given a chemical injection designed to restructure his brain.
In this true story his goal is to keep his mind active and create mental habits he describes and shares with the reader; that can add insight and knowledge; that may help guide us all through the murky environment of gaining insight and a partial understanding of schizophrenia insanity.
Schizophrenia can involve persistent and upsetting thoughts in the mind (obsessions) dysfunctional compulsive behavior patterns that take the form of rituals used in part to control anxiety; provoked in part by the core behavior patterns taken by the actions of the person fighting schizophrenia.
The video Perry created on himself and the e-book Perry has written may help people doing research in schizophrenia; and may also lead them to many new discoveries. Discoveries that point in the direction that schizophrenia are a combination of many psychological disorders interconnected in a sickness that shape the world of the person suffering from schizophrenia.
When Perry was first diagnosed with schizophrenia he searched for reading material that he could understand. Information that explained his mental illness; however most of the information and research he gathered was written by brilliant doctors; however beyond his comprehension.
Perry felt lost with the belief that no person he encountered could explain what a patient is suffering from when fighting schizophrenia; or how that person may think about their reality deep inside of my mind; or how their life could unravel inside the brain right before their eyes.
Living as a mental health patient; Perry wanted to find answers and a clear understanding of what is happening to his thought process running deep within his brain; and share his research findings using a funny, sad and compelling story with interested readers like you.
As Perry pioneered through his mind for answers he kept records to share with himself through reflection; revealed in the e-book “Walking Behind Schizophrenic Eyes”. Perry succeeds at tracing back his life on paper and shares his experiences and thoughts portrayed in an interesting, provocative story shared with the reader.
Perry kept track of most of his changing mental habits patterns as he faced; the challenges of fighting schizophrenia in his life; as described and written in this e-book.
Many brilliant doctors have written books on the subject of schizophrenia; and yet not many books have been written from the patient’s perspective; so I sincerely believe Perry has an interesting story to tell; full of first-hand research and ideas to share with the reader.
Perry presents the information in a clear story; written in an uncomplicated straightforward fashion without the need for a dictionary to help the reader understand the schizophrenic disorder he faced.
In order to understand the schizophrenia; you first must understand the person. In the story to come you will accumulate detail information that helps you acquire a bird’s eye view of how a person like Perry thinks suffering from schizophrenia.
As schizophrenia wraps around his brain; read his explanation for reasons why his new behavior triggered by his habits and thought patterns change his life; and how this change in the formulation of ideas shaped his behavior.
Understanding some of the habits patterns associated in this documented case study of a person suffering from schizophrenia; this literature may even give the family member’s reader’s better insight into the schizophrenia mental illness.
This information may also provide a glimpse of an inside look from a safe distance; on how the schizophrenic patient can feel when these mental illness condition changes occur inside their brain; naturally making changes their life.
In this e-book Perry has done his best to help explain how people can create mental habits that create insanity; and how the outcomes of these new mental habits created; will end up recreating a schizophrenic person’s behavior patterns that shape their world.
Please remember the research in this e-book is useless unless it is experienced first-hand.
Your happiness is possible when you make the conscious choice to be happy; and shift your world in a fashion that naturally increases your level of happiness stimulating the positive attitude and creativity that shape the outcome of your life.
Our brains are like a single processor computer. Each of our brain only has a limited number of resources to experience the world. So in psychology science; happiness is a choice about how we consciously or unconsciously choose to devote those finite resources we have in life.
Do you scan the world to fill your brain with all the weaknesses you have; and the problems; the errors; the stresses you have in your life? The result of that behavior pattern is to have no brain left over for seeing the other positive ways we can be grateful for the present moment; the meaning embedded in our lives; and the work you do on a daily basis to empower that life through the ways of transforming this present reality into the forms of a more successful life.
It is not necessarily the reality situation circumstance that shapes us; but the lenses in which we view the world that shaped our experience of reality. If we can change the lenses in which your brain viewed the world; through education and reflection; not only can we create the positive type of leadership; we can raise our health outcomes and ripple this effect out to people around us.
Success is not where you are; it is how far you have come since the day you started.
All of the events in this story are true and based on experienced events that happened; and only the poetry is based on fiction.
CHAPTER ONE
THE HOSPITAL
Doctor Lector; I have given the patient his medication; and he is back typing out his life story and writing poetry on the computer in the hospital library.
The video production department has finished his video file; and when you have the time please click on the link below and watch the patient video file.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_DnOC8ZPMOA&feature =youtu.be
Poetry
Insanities Companions’

Deep in my mind; can you see them too?
I start to laugh; I see my crazy crew
Voices or images that come and go
My insanity grows with the more I know

Many voices different from the other
One loves me acting like my mother
While others are nasty at times
Making me agree to horrible crimes

I am locked away
Watching my mind decay
Insanity rotting my brain day-by-day
Desire to create happiness drifted away

A mind trained to remember my past
A habit formed can last-and -last
I remember being healthy and free
I feel sorry for myself thinking of me

I sit alone paying for my crime
A criminal mind most of the time
Relentless voices never stop talking to me
Harassing me with images I can see

Tell me where to go; who I should see
Listen to words promising to help me
I never speak to people I see on the street
Lost in my mind I plan my retreat

Feeling uncomfortable when I walk
Feeling angry or frustrated when I talk
I scream stop talking to me
Fighting voices in my mind I can see

Sexy whispers in my ear
Anger into frustration becomes clear
I can have any woman I see?
I stalk dark streets hunting free

I crave sex to vent my rage
Voices tell me about a war we wage
Darkness of the night I prowl into the light
Looking for the girl to complete my night

Ritual voices become my habit