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"In My Mind" is the story of a young man who is infatuated by a student named Gabriella who reminds him of delicate butterflies. It follows Steve from childhood to adulthood and the mental demons that play havoc in his mind. He is unable to talk to anyone about it as he doesn't realise the mental depth he is in, till that dreadful night when Gabriella dies whilst held by him against her will, and he is then sent away. This story covers mental health, depression and hitting rock bottom in Steve's mind and looks at how this sensitive subject is still a taboo and we do not know enough about mental health and its consequences on our and others' lives.

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Publié par	Andrews UK
Date de parution	20 juin 2017
Nombre de lectures	0
EAN13	9781785387180
Langue	English

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îe Page                         î Pubîser ïnormaîon                  îî ïn My Mînd                       îîî

Caper One                       1 Caper wo                      21 Caper Hree                      42 Caper Four                      59 Caper Fîve                       78

In My Mind

Saîda Merban

In My Mind Fîrs pubîsed în 2017 by AG Books wwwagbookscouk Dîgîa edîîon convered and dîsrîbued by Andrews UK Limited wwwandrewsukcom © Copyrîg 2017 Saîda Merban He rîg o Saîda Merban o be îdenîIed as e auor o îs work as been assered în accordance wî e Copyrîg, Desîgns and Paens Ac 1998

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In My Mind

My ove you are perec, ï do no wan you o go, you are my mînd, appy o îve îs empy îe so Bo o us ad needed no one ese bu jus us, undersand my ove, ey undersood us no wo urbuen ears ogeer beaîng as one, wo acîng sous înseparabe, or we are none Evîs and egos ad o spoî our days o come, roses were red, wen your îp’s coour dîd run Fees as î eaven woud be ours a o e îme, îars and overs came, none were ruy ever mîne Ye you sayed and payed wî rîngîng în my ead, în and ou o roubed îmes, my ead was so ead Noîng ad canged as you remaîned so very rue, memorîes and madness, became roube a’s due You and ï wy coudn’ ey a jus eave us aone, mons o yearnîng, ad sady no made me a ome ïndeed ey dîdn’ undersand our aîned acîng paîn, nobody coud o been you, sady you were no my gaîn, dyîng seemed e a, îs îe eT me quîe însane ïn my mînd, în my mînd, you wî aways be wî me ïn my mînd, în my mînd, you were my ony eyes o see

CHapter One

Sowy, er body sîers down o e ground er împ and srokes e back o er ead as er eyes weep în paîn er paîn robs away and e sadness îs în er grey eyes Se knows a sowy bu surey, se wî be no more Se canno remember eeîng so epess ever beore în e îry-Ive years o er îe as se as eped o gîve îe, no ake î Se ays perecy serene, as beauîu as ever, make up sî as res as e mornîng dew and er eyes as round as a reîndeer’s buon nose, perecy round e sands besîde er and sudders, rembîng paîn în îs eyes as îs ears payuy ro down îs wîered, arced jaw “Sepen, save me pease, save me,” se peads wî îm, no în anger bu în epessness A e uers îs, “Gabrîea, my beauîu Gabrîea” Se ays sî wî sunned eyes peerîng up a e od cear ceîîng ï îs u o cîgar-smoke grey cobwebs and se knows a se as been ere once beore Se escaped beore, peraps se can once agaîn as ope come knockîng on e door once more? Se es îm o su up as se canno sand men wo cry îke a weepîng bîc e quîcky sous back a noîng can wound e sy ox în îm as e ony oves er and ared as no ome în îs unuIed acîng ear e es er o quîeen and reax as se as sufered a very bad “boody” bow o er ead roug er own înnocen cumsîness and a se as no rîg o eave îm, no maer wa Se mus ony îve or îm “My ead îs beedîng bady, ge ep, Sepen!” “mm,” e quîcky uers, “ï’s Seve, remember? Seve as în Seve McQueen ï’ve od you so many îmes o ca me Seve, my beauîu Gabrîea, ake a îe ook, you’ see e resembance”

Se Igs back, “No one cas me Gabrîea, î’s aways been Gaby” îs ongue cus er words sor “No, no, ï’ve od you î’s beauîu Gabrîea Veene You’re no îke e res, common ras îke e young ok o oday You’re sîmpy no ras, you are sopîsîcaed as ï, my gorgeous ï’m e and as you’re e gove, perec ogeer, my Gabrîea, ony mîne, no one ese’s” Here’s a creepy cî urkîng în e background He was are cryîng ou or ep or îs epess young îng amongs e cracks o e smoered paîn Hey wac as er soT voîce murmurs crîes o epessness and e în a word o îs own wî er Irmy în îs mînd e sîs on îs buocks wî îs nose drîbbîng sowy îke e ap a as worn ou îs waser, bu a e wîe, e keeps îs eyes Irmy on ers Fîxaed For a momen, e sands sî and ye îs ead îs casîng buerLîes Noîng new ere! îs ummîng une sounds îke, “Swee Gabrîea e mos deîcae buerLy o a, now ere wî me orever, jus e way î soud be, e way î soud ave been a ong îeîme ago, my swee, my swee” e înerrups îs own broken srîngs o sîde îs arm sraîg across îs moîs ace e carrîes on, eîng er a î as aken îm Ive years o ge er o come o say în îs kîngdom even oug se as vîsîed îs pubîc ouse upsaîrs many îmes îs broken srîng repeas îse and e rîes o reassure er a î’s ony A MAER OF ïME beore e beedîng wî sop and se wî Ind e energy o ge up Hen, e wî careuy crade er îno îs arms, bo craded în e corner o e pubîc ouse cear wîc e as made so new or er Here’s a îngerîng sme o îck acquer on e was and cean gossy oak sîdeboards aîned în srong odour, a bî îke îm e es er a e purcased îs desîgner wo-seaer în a peac coour jus or er because a’s er avourîe coour “He soa îs empy and so îs my Gabrîea’s îe My swee, do you reaîse now wy ï ad o ake you away rom îs wîcked and monsrous îe? Do you no undersand, Gabrîea? Bu o course,

you do You do, don’ you, Gabrîea? ï am ruy sorry, my swee, a ï ad o pu someîng în your drînk a ï made or you, wa dîd you ask or?” e augs ou oudy as îs ears rîng wî îs own auger, no one ese’s e can vîsuaîse er rîends upsaîrs, sîîng on e soT bossomed bar soos wî wîsky cracked spîners ragîng o ge ou Nîg as, darkness serenades e sky, e bar sands sî “You know, Gabrîea my swee, you mus read more deîcaey îke a buerLy Ha marînî on e rocks was supposed o ony make you reax and was away your worrîes and come în o my oney, ongîng arms ï woud ave guîded you careuy down ere so we coud îve our îe ogeer, orever A îe were ï woud ake care o you, a’s a ï wan and o uI your every wîs, a îe wî no care în e word as you woud be mîne and ï yours He ony îng you woud need o do was eed my unger Fîve ong years ï waîed and now you’ve gone and spoî î a, you coud ave ad everyîng Wy dîd you screec and sîer as ï aîded you o e wasroom? ï ad o îe o your rîends by eîng em a you’d eT aready You made me îe, Gabrîea my swee, îe, see wa you ave made me do ï DON’ ïE” e conînues wî îs jumbed words a e broug er down saîrs o speak o er and make er undersand a se needed o be saved rom er wîd rîends and e ad o proec er rom îs îe wîc was wrong îs sobbîng cîd-îke words pead wî er o wake up as e narrows îmse o er sender pînk pam and en nears îmse urer o sme er cose up “Wake up, beauy!” e orders er and e bangs îs Iss în vaîn or er o open er eyes, se beas back “docor” “ï’s okay, my swee, ï am ere, you need no one ese, we wî îve ogeer, we need no one ese, bu you need o îsen and be paîen wî me ï dîd ask you o come quîey wî me down e saîrs bu you resîsed ï ad o make sure a you dîdn’ ur yourse so ï ed you rea îg and caressîngy cose o my ear, my swee Gabrîea”

e conînues, “ï eped you a e way down e saîrs and en îno îs paace o ours You see, my swee îng, îme waîs or no one and ï ave been waîîng ar oo ong, Ive years or you and many years or my aer You’re în my ead, e’s în my mînd and my ear a e îme, as î î’s been raînîng or years, Ive ong years o geîng we as î ere’s ony been one season, wîner, cod and damp, en dry and we a over agaîn He wanîng and waîîng and oneîness and e mînd games you payed wî my ead wenever you came ï’m no oney anymore, no ï’m no, see, ï ave you and you ave me” He cod cemen Loor gîves no comor o îs posure as e casps îs ands îke a sape He crîspy crumby Loor ees cod and uncomorabe îke em, as one ay în er own bood ba and e oer besoed în îs own mînd e keeps remîndîng er a e îs doîng îs or er own good, e îs obsessed wî er deîcae beîng and now e wî make îs a beauîu ove sory Se es îm a îs îs a orror sory a’ desroy îm as dea wî come knockîng on e door soon enoug and er rîends wî repor er mîssîng e doesn’ wan e back dea o crade er e peers aenîvey a er addered back sockîngs and wedged back soes, e srokes e goîc ook one by one and en ooks îgy a er sor eaer skîr as e poîey asks er e purpose o wearîng suc îg coes? “Hîs îs wy ï ad o ake you away rom em, a ose peope you ang around wî, you undersand, ow coud you no?” e rîes o reassure er, “Don’ be errîIed o me or angry and îs îs no ow î was mean o be, we were supposed o îve appîy ever aTer îke Cînderea, îke Snow Wîe You can’ eave me ï won’ e you” e runs îs eavy ands roug er red aîr, a e wîe ryîng o unock er curs Se sowy says, “eave me aone, don’ ouc me A ï wan îs a docor, pease ca a docor” “Docor,” e reors, “ï can do wa a docor can do ï wî make you comorabe” îs eavy cammy ands smoer er egs Se ees uncomorabe and nervous and moves er egs

Goosebumps!! He aîr on er egs sand on edge wî e creepy eerîe cî and no because î îs cod e es er a se îkes a and even î se doesn’, se wî ave o ge used o î e snîfs and overs around er îke a bad sme, pacîng îs beîng cose o ers, reaîsîng a e wîe a even e îs eeîng uneasy îs eyes pîerce a er, as green as e sea on a no so sunny day e gazes a er sunny warm bue eyes and smîes e es er a ey can be ogeer orever now bu î jus wasn’ mean o be îs way and e repeas and repeas bu se ears no more îs one bounces up and down îke empy ye poweru words, bouncîng around în a oow bucke as e rîes o reassure er a î wî be arîg as se as îm and e îs enoug Sowy, e sîers of er oowear and remînds er a se can be more a ome and reaxed Se reeases sress by bendîng er oes ye er eyes Lîcker no îs nose îs moîsened and î drîps and drîps ono er e sees er eyes gîve way o e agonîsîng ear drops Hey gîsen rom e corners e doesn’ wan o ose conro or weaken bu esîany pus îs and undernea er ceek o save em “Our paîn, my beauy, îs e same We bo îdoîse one anoer, e ony dîference îs a you don’ know î ye e me wîpe away your eardrops as ey are oo precîous, my ove, my Gabrîea, my deîcae beauy, my awesome buerLy” e ooks a e eardrops în îs pam now and wî a ew words recîed o îmse, e rubs îs ands around îs own neck and es er a er paîn as become îs A man’s body jumbed ogeer în a boy’s ead? e as cosen no o grow up wereas oers ave ad no coîce! e sars o ak o er e es er a îs word as os îs senses, no îm He word canno apprecîae wa rue ove îs, as no one reay oves anyone anymore, î’s a us bu no îm îs words rîng îke an awu nîgmare bangîng on and on în er îny ears e es er, “ï’ go and ge us a ew drînks and you can reax and aTer a bîe o ea, maybe a drînk agaîn We wî sî and we’ ak and wî make a pan abou our uure îe ogeer, as ï aven’