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This novel set in the North Country of New York State explores gay adoption in an entertaining way for both gay and general audiences. Ean is a young gay man who works as a Forensic Case Manager at a social services agency, who has been married to Stacy, an Assistant District Attorney, for three years. Stacy feels compelled to adopt a child Ean names Tur (Rut spelled backwards), who is about to be placed in foster care. As their journey with Tur begins, Ean almost loses Stacy in a car accident with a male bull moose. Stacy dies suddenly after years of disability. Ean tries to start a new life with Tur without Stacy; however, he encounters many impediments ranging from suicidal thoughts to the Cinderella complex. Ean must overcome the final conflict of allowing Mark, a moose-obsessed Department of Conservation (DEC) worker, to fully enter his life or perish in loneliness. In the end, Ean triumphs as he allows Mark, a new male "bull", into his life.

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Vie de famille

Parentalité et Éducation des Enfants

LGBTQ+

Gay

Fiction

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Publié par	eBookIt.com
Date de parution	27 mars 2013
Nombre de lectures	0
EAN13	9781456615253
Langue	English

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The Rut
By
Bernard Amador

Also by Bernard Amador
To Know Å Fallen Angel:
Understanding the Mind of a Sexual Predator
Cyber-Eugenics: The Neural Code
The Hei

Hudson Mohawk Press
595 New Loudon Road #138
Latham , New York 12110
www.hudsonmohawkpress.com
Copyright © 2010 by Bernard Amador
www.toknowafallenangel.com
All rights reserved.
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or locales is entirely coincidental.
No part of this book may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted by any means without the written permission of the author.
First edition published in paperback in 2010 by Hudson Mohawk Press (ISBN 978-0-984304028)
Library of Congress Control Number: 20120921350 (Hudson Mohawk Press edition)
Book design by Bernard Amador
Cover Image: Embryo in Uterus by Leonardo da Vinci

F or Bill & Cuchie
Thanks for sharing the inception of “The Rut”.
Just remember:
“If the rules tell us that we have to gain a full understanding of fiction before we can write it well, many of us will never pick up a pen”
~ Ellen J. Langer

Contents
Title Page
Also by the Author
Copyright
Dedication
Prologue
Part I: Adoption
Chapter I: L’orignal
Chapter II: Tur
Chapter III: Collide
Part II: Solitude
Chapter IV: Lonely Nights
Chapter V: Sightings
Chapter VI: Moose on the Loose
Chapter VII: Running with the Bulls
Part III: Partnering
Chapter VIII: The Bull
Chapter IX: Copulation
Chapter X: The Perfect Mate
Epilogue
About the Author

Prologue
Mooers, New York
October 23 rd
T here goes l’orignal. That’s what French Canadians call the moose. He’s still looking with the desire to engage in the most important act of God, creation. I can remember the first time I learned what it was all about. We won’t go there now. What I do know is that through it, I acquired the desire to design and bring into life something new. Being gay it seems I am predisposed to have a strong desire to create, whether making curtains for our new home or writing this book. It also seems that the desire to create life grows stronger as I age, wanting to have a new part of me I can nurture and watch grow. My problem is not that I am a gay man, no, that is not an obstacle. What blocks me from my natural urge to propagate is that I am in a relationship with Ean. Ean does share my desire to have a child. Having a child that is not biologically his own is not the path he wishes to be on. I chose it for him. Is it fate perhaps? My course in life is to partake in the continuous repetition of God’s design, to engage in a fixed mode of procedure, a lesson in life that brings both moments of pain and joy to those who partake in the most crucial act of nature. I once partook of such action on a dare that resulted in life while trying to be accepted by others. But God took all that away from me. I now make the conscious decision to participate in the act of adoption. I also ask myself is my fate the result of the fact that I am aware of my own existence? Should I make the choice to bring forth action that results in a product of myself to be a part of this world? Being fully aware only allows me a certain level of control, a fraction of my destiny. I am powerless. I now know that it is the creator and ruler of the universe who presides over the course of worldly affairs. Over and over the creator gives me the same thought that takes a routine synaptic path channeling the idea driven by the sexual excitement that such thoughts bring into being. The result is not what I had in mind; it is the consequence of a greater creator who leads me to these pages to share with you a report of the facts concerning the matter in question, "The Rut".

Part I
Adoption

Chapter I
L’orignal
“ C ome to bed!”
It is late and Ean is not asleep. He called. I can tell when he’s signaling to mate.
“I’ll be there soon!”
I put down my pen and left the nursery to answer his call. Like any good mate, I answered his, performed my duty, and returned to the nursery when he fell asleep. We had to get to work in the morning but I wanted to get a few more words written before the weekend was over. I picked up my pen. Ean did not know that since its inception I had started documenting our idea to adopt the child and what we were about to undertake that coming week. I sat in the chair at the desk in our new nursery and stared at the photos that the child’s mother had sent me. My vision was all so clear.
L’orignal bolted across Interstate-87 as he heard a truck’s horn blow as it approached. He made his way to safety. The loud honk blew a second time as the moose ran off the side of the road and into the brush. Ean could not hear it in the distance as he turned off the shower and pulled back its curtain. His tall lanky body stepped out onto the bathroom rug. His wet olive skin glistened. Ean ran both hands back over his shimmering black hair as water streamed behind his ears. A few seconds later he could hear the echo of the moose’s call. Ean is what they call an early riser. The sound of the truck horn blew a third time as he reached for his towel and dried off as he pressed his feet into the bathroom rug to absorb the water. The mist of the shower fogged up the window as he wiped his body dry, and wiped the glass to look outside. It was still dark. Ean could not see a thing. There was a mist in the air. It was late October and the mornings were getting colder. Fall was here. Ean dreaded this time of year but welcomed the bright reds, oranges, yellows, greens, and browns that the season offered. It was five thirty in the morning. He walked out of the bathroom and into our master suite. I was still snuggled in bed hugging my pillow as Ean dried his hair. He walked slowly towards me and reached for the lamp near my side of the bed and turned it on. I did not flinch. With towel in hand Ean gently touched my arm curled around the pillow to wa ke me.
“Sweetie, it’s time to get up.”
I hugged the pillow tighter and nestled my face into it.
“Hey, it’s time to get up,” said Ean as the alarm clock went off.
I let go of the pillow and turned my body towards the alarm clock that sat on the night stand. Just a few hours earlier I had closed my journal with Da Vinci’s Studies of Embryos on the cover and pulled the elastic strap from behind it and placed the journal in the drawer.
I shut off the alarm clock and pursed my lips in Ean's direction. Ean kissed me as I turned away and climbed out of the bed and headed for the bathroom.
“We’re getting closer to the big day,” I said.
“You don’t have to remind me,” said Ean as I disappeared into the bathroom.
As I showered, Ean entered the bathroom, hung up his towel and returned to the bedroom to finish dressing. After he dressed he went into the kitchen to make a pot of coffee. This was a routine that would soon be changing. After Ean filled the coffee pot with water and poured ground coffee into the top of the machine, he turned on the power button to begin the brewing process. He could hear the machine begin to percolate as he entered the spare bedroom. He loved our camp. But would he love it more with the addition? The room brightened as he turned on the light switch. Before the addition of the new crib that converted into a day bed, the room had a rustic feel. Now the room was filled with items of white for a new life to come--bassinet, rocker, changing table, pampers, car seat, etc. The walls are cedar and the furniture oak. The tree rings visible in the wood paneling and the furniture reflected life. Ean wondered if this is what impressed upon me the desire to bring more life into our home. We argued about the material the crib was made of, and came to the agreement that it would be made of wood, but there was no agreement on the finish. Ean wanted to stay traditional and go with the wood theme but I was not having it.
“It’s a boy,” said Ean.
“That is why white is better, it is made up of all visible colors.”
“Wood is more natural and neutral. Why does everything have to be white?” asked Ean.
“We went over this already.”
“I thought we were doing this together.”
“We are.”
“Since it has been discussed, your decision is final,” said Ean.
“It is our discussion,” I said.
“But your decision!”
I disputed Ean, did not give in, and won. So there it stood, a bright white lacquer crib. Arguing the child’s sex did not seem to sway me. Ean wondered what would happen when we had to name the child. When we argued, I could have won that also but I thought I would let him have it. Tur was his idea. It’s rut spelled backwards.
I could see Ean looking up out of the corner of his eye at the stuffed moose head mounted to the far left wall with the engraved label below that read l’orignal . Keeping it was another argument he lost. I did not want to get rid of it. In today’s market the estimated value of such an item was over two thousand dollars. The taxidermist’s dream was left behind by the previous owners along with some books about moose and a warning pamphlet about how more moose were making their way to the North Country of New York State. The previous owners were moose lovers.
When we first moved into the camp I spent some evenings reading the books they had left behind. The moose, I learned, were an interesting species and the largest land mammal in North America. When I tried explaining these facts one night to Ean while we laid in bed, he was not interested.
“They can weigh up to 1200 pounds and can grow up to 6 feet tall. The rut, as the breeding season came to be known, starts in late September, early October.”
Ean listened quietly as I told him that male bulls engaged in aggressive displays to gain a mate during the rut and could breed with up to six female c